Omg, it sounds like I’m about to break up with you all. Don’t worry, I’m not. But we do need to talk though. Where do I start?
I think it’s time for me to re-evaluate (again) what I am doing with my life. I know what you’re thinking. I have had this conversation with you all like 5 or 6 times before. The thing is, I’m glad that in each of those times, I have recognized that there was a problem that I needed to change. I need to step back and look at what I’m doing. Is everything I’m doing busy work or is it for a purpose? It’s fine to have hobbies and occupy my time, but time is precious and I need to be working towards something. Over the last couple of days, I have been thinking about this blog and my YouTube channel. Why am I doing them? To get myself out there and see if there are people who would like to read my book. There is a slight downfall in this theory because I am spending so much time on the blog and channel that I am forgetting what it’s all for. I’m here to write. It’s what I love best, but it seems that I’ve been distracted by the blog and channel and have not been giving my writing the right amount of time. I thought splitting up the week was a good idea, but days are starting to spill over into others and the blog side is kind of monopolizing my time.
I believe that I am on this planet to write. That is what I’m here for. The advertising and putting myself out there will come soon enough, but it means nothing if I don’t have a book to show. I have to continue to remind myself what my priorities are. It’s hard, but once I prioritize some things need to get cut out from my life. To be honest, I was beginning to feel overwhelmed with everything with my daily blogging schedule and bi-weekly YouTube channel, and I don’t want that to completely happen. I am so thankful that I’m seeing the signs ahead of time unlike before when I would try to push through it and in the next few weeks would get irritable and burnt out. I refuse to go back there, so it’s time to take a break. I need to decide what I want out of this blog and the channel and my life. I want to work on some new projects. I want to do some big things. I need a break to get my mind in order and when I say I’m taking a break, I will be taking a break from EVERYTHING. That means twitter, facebook, the youtube channel, this blog, instagram, (have I forgotten anything?) I think that all of these have become a distraction. I get on the site when I don’t really need to. I can’t waste time anymore. I need to focus on what’s ahead because it’s going to be big. God is preparing me for something big and I need to be ready. I hope you understand that this is what I need to do to keep my sanity. As I write this, it does sound like a break-up text, but I promise I’m not going to be gone forever. Knowing me, I’ll be popping up from time to time, but for now, it’ll be all about the writing, the joy of my life.
I love you Rule-breakers. See you (eventually)!!!
From the #1 Rule-breaker,
P.S. I really do love you guys. Thank you for being so supportive and hanging in there. See you around and I’ll be back before you know it.